AboutMy name's Moriarty and I like spy shows, DOS games, redheads, adventuring, beer after work and generally having a good time.
There was a time in my life when I was very depressed and watched the 6 seasons of Lost over the course of about 1.5 months. I don’t really remember what else I was doing at the time except for not enjoying work and sending long emotional e-mails to friends because I didn’t know how to deal with what I was feeling. I do remember lying on the couch and eating Cajun food, drinking beers, hitting next episode, trying to do Sudokus on my iPhone at the same time as watching endless, endless Lost. Weirdly though, I remember this fondly. I remember it felt really great being totally immersed in tv, despite how sad I definitely was at the time.
Recently I’ve started watching The X-Files for the first time and have watched almost four seasons in a month, which is pretty similar to my Lost mileage. And I’m really enjoying recapturing the feeling of lying on the couch, watching endless episodes while drinking beers under an orange blanket. But things are subtly different. I’m no longer Very Sad. Instead of desperately wanting to do phone sudokus at the same time as trying to watch the show, I’m better at leaving my phone in the next room and concentrating on just one thing. Instead of being alone in a mostly empty house, I have rad housemates who are buzzing around doing their things and occasionally joining me. Instead of it being autumn heading into winter, it’s winter heading into spring, and when I finish what I’m watching there’s the promise of long days, and more friend hangouts over summer and pineapple. It’s weird that I want to recapture a sensation from one of life’s saddest times, but it’s encouraging that I am recapturing it in a way that’s phenomenally better. I had concerns that watching large amounts of tv is a sign that you might be getting more depressed or anxious than normal. But now I feel convinced that it’s something you can jump into at any point if you feel like you want to do it, as long as you’re cautious that you’re not leaving everything else behind.
It’s fun immersing most of your free time in something very well-crafted that makes you feel happy. And hopefully a sign of some level of increasing maturity that when I’m not watching tv, a lot of my free thoughts have changed from “how can I be more like these characters?” to “can I start making some characters that make people feel like this?”
Probably pretty general thoughts/thinking them anyway.